It was her source of life, of revival, of hope and she had begun to depend on it. A place she found herself consistently, day in and day out. She couldn’t go a day without visiting it, as she found her need for it was great.
The well was her source of life.
She arrived daily at noon with a jar in her hand. She came eager and ready to fill this jar with water from Jacob’s well. She was Samaritan.
On this day she came, a man was there. He was Jewish.
The man looked exhausted by the trip he had made and decided to take a seat at the well.
When the woman approached the well, she noticed the man taking a rest.
While drawing water, the man looked at the woman and asked her, “would you give me a drink of water?”
She was taken aback by his question and asked, “how come you, a Jew, are asking me, a Samaritan woman, for a drink?”
In these days, Jewish people and Samaritans did not speak to one another.
The man, being wise and witty beyond his years replied, “if you knew the generosity of God and who I am, you would be asking me for a drink, and I would give you fresh, living water.”
She stood in silence for a moment, unsure what to say.
She weighed both options that were before her.
It looked a little like this...
Should I continue to drink the water from this well that never truly satisfies my thirst?
Should I keep returning to a well that runs dry frequently and provides little promise?
Or, should I accept this “living water?”
She didn’t trust him and felt very skeptical of his offer.
“Sir, you have nothing to draw with and the well is deep. Where can you get this living water?” she asked.
She was arrogant and didn’t realize that this man wanted to eternally satisfy a deeper thirst- a deep longing for lasting companionship, created by God: this man was the only Source that could satisfy her soul and her longing. The water the man provides is water of eternal promise, water of hope, water of joy, and water of peace.
All He needed to draw from the well was His spirit, for this would draw her near to Him. He was simply looking into her heart, not the bottom of the well. Her heart was empty and He was offering to fill it.
This wise and witty man at the well my friends was Jesus and this parable is straight from John 4.
Recently, I’ve been struggling with feeling full.
It seems that everything drains me.
Preparing for Berry College drains me.
My health issues drain me.
My friendships and relationships drain me.
Writing drains me.
Reading drains me.
You get the point.
Every single thing I do leaves me feeling drained, exhausted, and empty; however, this changed a few days ago upon having a very needed conversation with my best friend Steven. I will detail the outcome of this conversation later in my post.
However, I couldn’t ever recover from the constant energy I was exerting and I felt like I was pushing myself beyond what I could handle. I was asking for the Lord to give me rest in His arms and I was asking for Him to provide me peace.
I began getting so frustrated because it felt like God was not providing.
On Monday night, Steven and I talked for two hours or so about ways I could find energy and rest once again.
I was sharing with him that I felt God wasn’t providing peace or rest for me, no matter how many times I prayed for it. I said I felt like the Israelites waiting for God to give them rest and deliver true on promises.
He says to me, “I don’t think you’re asking the right way. You can’t neglect Him. He wants a relationship with you, not for you to just ask Him for things, even if every night.”
This statement temporarily knocked the breath out of me.
In this moment, I knew he was right. Steven, you helped me realize something crucial to my survival; you helped me realize that I wasn’t approaching it the right way.
I wasn’t pursuing God as I needed to be; I wasn’t growing in my relationship with Him daily as I once was during first semester of senior year. Even though I was praying every single night and surrendering my anxieties (1 Peter 5:7 NIV) to Him, I wasn’t growing with the Lord. I was trying to replace the Lord with other things.
And this was my major flaw.
Clay Scroggins always hits me right in the heart with this quote of his:
“You will never passively find what you don’t actively pursue.”
Our hearts are the wells needing to be filled. We are the lady at the well. Our hearts were designed to be filled up by God; there is an emptiness present at certain points in our lives and God is the only one who is equipped to fill it.
However, like the lady at the well, we depend on other things to fill ourselves up: boyfriends, girlfriends, mentors, friends, jobs, school, sports, sexual temptations, hobbies, drugs, alcohol, husbands, kids.
But they never fill us up though, do they?
And it’s simply because they aren’t supposed to.
But we all do this, don’t we?
Life gets busy. We are running around like chickens with our heads cut off majority of the time. We begin to prioritize our relationship with God under other things and responsibilities. We exhaust our energy and try to regain energy/fill up our hearts with things that are not the Lord. From that, we don’t feel like we receive the affirmation, attention, peace, and love we deserve. Then I find we miss the point entirely.
God created us to seek him, to thirst for him, to find him, to love him. He fills the empty space in our hearts. Nothing else can and nothing else ever will. Until we realize that God’s acceptance and love is enough, nothing else will ever fill us.
We cannot run ourselves down and expect to refuel without seeking the Lord daily and allowing Him to guide us.
This is proven by Daniel in one of the Psalms.
You, God, are my God, earnestly I seek you; I thirst for you, my whole being longs for you, in a dry and parched land where there is no water.
Psalm 63:1 (NIV)
He calls to God, because He knows God is the only one who can satisfy his thirst. He knows if he draws near to God, God will draw near to Him. And it worked! David was one of the most influential men in the Bible and this was all because He consistently allowed God to fill his heart when he felt empty and relied on God heavily.
On Monday, I realized I was leaving God behind. I was thinking that I could just ask Him to answer my prayers without seeking Him daily. I was neglecting my relationship with him entirely. And I found something very important: I could never fully understand Him, be fully connected to Him, or be fully rejuvenated and prepared for the next trial of my life if I chose to not involve the One who created it all!
This is a ridiculous expectation; I was being ridiculous.
How could I expect God to fill up my heart if I wasn’t pursuing Him?
There is just absolutely no way that this is possible and I thank Steven for talking some sense into me.
So, he said, “I think we should start another Bible plan” but better yet, we began reading Daniel together.
We have been doing this since Monday and friends, it’s working.
Through reading the Bible and studying the word of the Lord once again, I feel full. I feel joyful and I feel peaceful. I feel ready to take on the world again. I have a “can do attitude” again instead of a “cannot do attitude.”
And all it took was one small adjustment!
As I planned for this post, I made a list of things you can do to fill your heart with God and I am going to share that with you below.
Whether this be in pray, journaling, singing songs, or sitting in silence you need to find a way that you can communicate with the Lord and tell Him everything that is bogging down your mind. Explain to Him how you feel and ask Him to work in your heart. Ask Him to complete His work in you and to have His way in your life. Lift everything up to Him and feel the weight slide off your shoulders.
Yes, I know you hear everyone in faith spewing this “you need to trust the Lord” line left and right. But it’s 100% truth (no pun intended). When you surrender your life to the Lord, you must have a childlike faith. You must surrender your worries to the Lord and trust that His plan is sovereign. He has a plan and in His time, He will provide.
Seeking him consistently is a hard task. It’s obvious that I struggle with it, but I know everyone does; however, work on consistently reading and spending quiet time with God. Make a schedule. Find someone who you can read with on a regular basis. But if you feel empty I have found no better cure than cracking open my Bible and getting down to it. You should get to discovering things because the Bible is full of so many amazing and interesting things; God will heal your emptiness and fill you if you are willing to involve Him in all that you do.
By serving others, you will find a joy deeper than you could imagine. As you are surrendering to the Lord and seeking Him, you will gain energy. The best way I can think to spend this energy is serving others. I get lost in the service of others because it fills me with so much energy and joy. Find a way to serve others in your community whether it be making dinner for a friend, volunteering at an animal shelter to walk the dogs, helping your mom around the house, or serving in your church. I promise you that you will find God filling up your heart through the service of other people.
And those are my suggestions. Plain and simple. No sugar coating or added ingredients.
It works, friends.
I went from running on empty to having an overflowing amount of joy in just a few days.
Our hearts are the wells and Jesus is looking at us. He wants to fill us up: give us joy, give us rest, give us peace, and give us hope.
And all we have to do actively pursue Him and watch as He works within us… filling us.
“Butterflies are nature’s tragic heros. They life most of their lives being completely ordinary. And then, one day, the unexpected happens. They burst from their cocoons in a blaze of colors and become utterly extraordinary. It is the shortest phase of their lives, but it hold the greatest importance. It shows us how empowering change can be.” -Kelseyleigh Reber
The New Year is here and while that is a blessing, sometimes it can be trying on our faith. We want God to work within our timing and when He doesn’t, it can feel like our New Year is backwards and becoming Yew Near. But we must not assume God is up to malice because He is not working within our timing.